Today I realized my worth.. After months of torturing myself with remorse for hurting the man who loved me, after nights of silent weeping, after countless desperate attempts of winning him back, I decided to stop! To live again and love myself...
My life doesn't have to stop here... I know I've hurt him really bad, but I know that I made the right decision. He deserves someone who could love him just as much as he does.. And it's something that I can't give him.. I tried but I just can't.. not anymore.. It's time to let go...
I also realized that moving on doesn't have to involve another man, or a new relationship.. Love on the rebound would just hurt more. Being in love is always great, but it has to be for the right reasons. I have to start loving myself first...
It's time for me to regain myself.. To gather what I have lost. To make new friends... to win back old friends... to enjoy life.. to party... to dance... to sing.. to laugh...to go for the things I want... to follow my dreams.. to do the things I failed to do, the things I missed... .to smile... to be happy...to be myself..
Today, a friend asked me to join a mountaineering organization. We are planning to go mountain climbing in February. I said Yes!:) and I'm so excited..I can't wait. This is just the perfect diversion that I need...
Yes to a new beginning!!!:)
LIFE IS GREAT!
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